. fantasies .

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

i recently came accross my friend's blog. you have the usual rantings and comments, but what really caught my attention was a statement about his/her personality/character and what happened to him/her this year. yeah, i agree with some statements but you could never take out the negative things i think about this particular friend (and his/her recent entry itself).

it just pains me to think that he/she still acts soo innocent when in fact, he/she is not at all. i browsed through some friendster profiles and some things caught my attention, which sparked my interest, which caused my mind to think of some thoughts hidden at the back of my head, which caused me to write this. i so don't know why people think he/she's a saint when almost all the things he/she does is contradicting the saint image. i wish people will see beyond his/her looks and the things he/she does in front of everybody. because i know that is just an "act" he/she's putting up so he/she could win the hearts of all the people. his/her actions and usual rambling is so sickening that i just wonder why i befriended him/her. maybe it was destiny. or maybe it was meant to be. anyway, i just couldn't plain believe that he/she had also won the hearts and sympathy of others. now i and my other friends-who-also-think-that-he/she's-not-that-innocent are the ones who are being misjudged by the people. is it a sin for us to show our true colors and oppose what the so-called "friend" is doing?

i and some others also had an encounter with him/her recently. he/she continues to say that he/she didnt do the things we know he/she did. we have evidence for crying out loud! we know that he/she's a conniving little witch (i think 'wizard' doesn't sound appropriate, even for a male ^.^) who lied about the issue and backstabbed my other friends. we had a talk about that issue (together with him/her and his/her accomplice) and guess what. we made up in the end. but some of us know that he/she still has major issues to settle with us. we had not entirely forgiven him/her because he/she still keeps doing those inappropriate things. oh, that sucks big time. i am so fed up with him/her that i am surprised that i still am being civil towards him/her. oh well, life's life. you always have these crap hurled at you.

shucks. after ranting about this so-called friend, it didn't ease my emotions a bit. i guess that's because he/she still acts like he/she is oblivious to everything but in reality, he/she's not. i just want to drill into his/her mind that what he/she's doing is very wrong and he/she had to stop that. i want him/her to change for the better but it keeps getting harder to accomplish since i am getting more fed up with him/her. i guess it's also hard for him/her to change since he/she's used to his/her world of connivances. oh well, i hope i could put all my thoughts in order and say what i have to say to him/her (and advise him/her to steer clear of the connivance career). and i just hope God would make him/her realize that.

oh, and by the way. he/she believes in God. he/she believes in His Scriptures and the teachings of the Bible. i guess he/she should review those materials immediately. i think he/she missed the part where the Bible states that 'THOU SHALL NOT LIE.' and those other parts where you should not do immoral things. oh well..

my fantasy happened @ 1:33 AM

Thursday, May 04, 2006

earlier i had a conversation with one of my best buddies/kabarkada ellaine. we talked about our past high school life and the incoming college life. and then right there, i realized. goodness. i'm getting so much older! haha. anyway, the whole college thing somehow sucks though. i won't be able to spend that much time with my kabarkadas anymore since we're all gonna separate na. but still, college life may be a little more interesting than high school life. so yeah, i'm kinda excited about that. haha.

i just watched project runway, where they showed jay's life after the show. i must say, it's quite hilarious. haha. jay just knows how to make the viewers laugh. teehee.

somebody is texting me and goodness, it's so annoying. the person kept asking about my friend. oh crap.

oh yeah, i miss somebody so much right now. sad to say, i can't do anything about it. hope he'll speak to me soon. T.T

feeling: sad
listening to: ti amero by il divo

my fantasy happened @ 10:35 PM

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

i decided to update my blog just for this post. naaawa na ako sa blog ko cuz it seems so.. forlorn.. having just a few posts to back it up. so.. i decided it's time to get up (not litereally though. haha), stop being lazy and get on with the update thing.

yesterday i was reading posts of avid pinoy big brother teen edition fans. just then i saw a link that says something like "inaway nila si jollibee -- Ugly Americans". curiosity got me so i clicked on it. i saw a post of a person named pamie regarding her somewhat 'not-so-memorable' encounter with jollibee. they think it tastes like cafeteria food. they spit on napkins. they took pictures of the food. they said jollibee food tastes also like catfood. a lot of degrading remarks, actually. but they regretted their actions in the end. being a filipino who loves jollibee, i was insulted at first by their degrading remarks. i didnt find anything funny in that post (some filipinos i know said it was quite funny). i wanted to talk about it so i went to post's forum. that's when things started getting funny. people are going ga-ga over defending our so-called nation's pride: jollibee. some were trying to defend jollibee's side of why this bee's food tastes like that. some were even throwing curses at the 'ugly americans' (yeah, it was the filipinos who were doing that). some other filipinos were trying to defend pamie and her friends. the others were still throwing curses, not only to the 'ugly americans' but also to the people who they have hailed as 'ugly filipinos'. haha. i just find that forum really funny. especially because it's only about jollibee. i got tired of the forum in the end, because words said are redundant. so i just had to leave. but then again, it was a good read. for those who are interested: the 'war' that started because of poor old jollibee. haha -- http://www.pamie.com/archives/pamie/open_up_and_say.html

about the pbb teen edition.. well.. i'm a what they call 'kapuso' so it's weird for me to watch pbb. this is the first time that i'm watching this reality tv series. but hey, it's about teens. so why pass up that chance? now i know why filipinos are going crazy about pbb. it's all about the loveteams and chismis. hahaha. too bad mikki's time is finally up. lol

and i must say.. i'm feeling quite energetic nowadays. so maybe i'll be able to update my blog in a 'healthy' manner after all. haha.

my fantasy happened @ 9:44 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

it's been almost a month since i updated my blog. a lot of things happened, and most of them aren't really those that give you happy memories..

first of all, my chinese test. yeah, i studied for it and all, but i still got a very low grade of 76. yeah. you read it right. 76. not the usual grade for a student like me, but what could i do? the teacher was soo magulo in giving out the questions. i had the right answers, but i got the wrong numbers. stupid numbers. i would have gotten myself a grade of 97 if it weren't for that teacher and my noisy classmates.

second, BACKSTABBERS. who are them, you might ask? well, believe it or not, these are my friends. talk about the reality of life. yeah, it wasn't that serious but the amount of hurt that was involved, that was the one which makes this little thing, big. it started when the elections of club officers were fast approaching. i was going to run for this club, and my friend is too. i kinda made a pakiusap to him. i told him not to run nalang cuz he has a position in another organization already. but he wasn't the one whom you could make a plea, especially when it comes to grades. so the campaigning started, and we went in our separate directions. at the day of the elections, he won as the president. i was crushed by that, cuz the people didn't give me a chance to have a position, and to also prove my worth at that. i was nominated again for secretary, but another friend of mine ran for that position also. technically, she wasn't allowed to run cuz she already has a position in another club. i told this to her, but she just disregarded it. and then, she won. and the second time that day, my heart was crushed. at the end of the elections, i wasn't elected into any position, even the lowest one. i was about to cry right then and there, but my pride told me not to do so. i refused to talk to my friends for the rest of that day. when i got home, i cried. i let all of my frustrations out, but sadly, that wasn't enough. i was still a mess inside, with my heart torn into pieces. i talked with some of my friends, and they felt sorry for me. i was thankful cuz i still have friends whom i can turn to. life is so hard.

i realized that rules weren't meant to be followed. look at our policy. the teacher knew about 'it' in the end, yet he didn't take the necessary actions.

i realized that material things really do cloud people's minds. look at my situation. my friends practically traded our friendship over grades, position, and glory.

i realized that sometimes, the ones who you weren't close with are the real friends whom you could trust at the end. the ones who practically shared your life with turned out to be the ones whom you couldn't trust at the end.

sometimes, life really is unfair. you just have to bear it. for the meantime.

currently listening to: she's no you by jesse mccartney
currently feeling: betrayed and frustrated
current wish: for life to be fair

my fantasy happened @ 8:56 PM

Sunday, June 05, 2005

oh yeah.. finally.. a new look to my once old boring blog. still trying to see what i can fix here. anyway, school's about to start. argh. i didnt even get a chance to spend my summer vaction doing nothing besides watching tv and all that home-y stuff. even though, i still got the chance to attend this program. yeah, it was all that lessons-with-assignments-then-quizzes stuff but it was so cool. i wish it didnt end that soon! i already miss all of my friends there. although i spent my summer being a 'nerd', i still got to enjoy it with my other co-nerd friends. cheers. :D

my fantasy happened @ 1:02 AM

Thursday, June 02, 2005

yes, we meet again. today, our "barkada" got the chance to see each other once again. we saw a movie, madagascar, which was really great and cute. =P i LOVE the song "i like to move it, move it". yeah, it was cute and funky for me. speaking of funky, i remember that rexona commercial. haha. funk me. hahaha. anway, after watching the movies we decided to play some games. this calls for: timezone. haha. the games there are fun. especially the star wars racing game. it was cool. i wonder if i'll get the chance to drive one of those things.. anyway, we dropped by bread talk and national bookstore afterwards. and then, the parting. it didnt rain tears. on the contrary, we had jolly faces when we said our goodbyes. maybe we just believe that we will see each other again soon. my blog's not cool pa rin. im just too tired now. and something's irritating me, i dont know what. so, i'll end this entry for now. argh. stupid. >.<

my fantasy happened @ 12:09 AM

Thursday, May 26, 2005

so.. this blog isnt interesting yet.. still trying to get the hang of posting, changing templates, posting pictures, etc etc.. i'll ask for help from my friends for now, bcoz im not that good with these stuff.. if i try to push my brain to the limit in figuring out all these features and stuff, i might just as well give up and save myself from the headaches.. >.< anyway, all my friends seem to be asleep right now, so, i'll just ask them tomorrow.. by then i hope i could make my blog more interesting.. anyway, ciao!

my fantasy happened @ 12:43 AM