Sunday, July 03, 2005
it's been almost a month since i updated my blog. a lot of things happened, and most of them aren't really those that give you happy memories..
first of all, my chinese test. yeah, i studied for it and all, but i still got a very low grade of 76. yeah. you read it right. 76. not the usual grade for a student like me, but what could i do? the teacher was soo
magulo in giving out the questions. i had the right answers, but i got the wrong numbers. stupid numbers. i would have gotten myself a grade of 97 if it weren't for that teacher and my noisy classmates.
second, BACKSTABBERS. who are them, you might ask? well, believe it or not, these are my
friends. talk about the reality of life. yeah, it wasn't that serious but the amount of hurt that was involved, that was the one which makes this little thing, big. it started when the elections of club officers were fast approaching. i was going to run for this club, and my friend is too. i kinda made a
pakiusap to him. i told him not to run
nalang cuz he has a position in another organization already. but he wasn't the one whom you could make a plea, especially when it comes to
grades. so the campaigning started, and we went in our separate directions. at the day of the elections, he won as the president. i was crushed by that, cuz the people didn't give me a chance to have a position, and to also prove my worth at that. i was nominated again for secretary, but another friend of mine ran for that position also. technically, she wasn't allowed to run cuz she already has a position in another club. i told this to her, but she just disregarded it. and then, she won. and the second time that day, my heart was crushed. at the end of the elections, i wasn't elected into any position, even the lowest one. i was about to cry right then and there, but my pride told me not to do so. i refused to talk to my friends for the rest of that day. when i got home, i cried. i let all of my frustrations out, but sadly, that wasn't enough. i was still a mess inside, with my heart torn into pieces. i talked with some of my friends, and they felt sorry for me. i was thankful cuz i still have friends whom i can turn to. life is so hard.
i realized that rules weren't meant to be followed. look at our policy. the teacher knew about 'it' in the end, yet he didn't take the necessary actions.
i realized that material things really do cloud people's minds. look at my situation. my friends practically traded our friendship over grades, position, and glory.
i realized that sometimes, the ones who you weren't close with are the real friends whom you could trust at the end. the ones who practically shared your life with turned out to be the ones whom you couldn't trust at the end.
sometimes, life really is unfair. you just have to bear it. for the meantime.
currently listening to: she's no you by jesse mccartney
currently feeling: betrayed and frustrated
current wish: for life to be fair
my fantasy happened @ 8:56 PM